mazohyst of decadence 

Child that will be born    adults with no sense of guilt    fallen
I who has no name    why am I here    I don't even understand, but
I don't know that I only have a few months to live...

I want to love    I want to be born    inside this mother's body, staring
since the time I waited for conciousness    two months on I sensed something fast
yet I could do nothing    that cord of ours will be...

I, incomplete, my body pierced through with hooked pain
mother's screaming voice, ringing in my ears, will not cease    white coated adults scooped me up
in eyes overflowing with coldheartedness    bloody, without a right hand, I am reflected
just as I was, in black vinyl I am wrapped, engulfed
while my conciousness is gradually fading, I consider quietly
if I, caged, am loved as I am, that is good    it cannot be forgiven

it's better that I, unloveable, died as I am
in quiet I shall sleep    without giving my first cry
just once, I want to feel a mother's love
maybe this is love    thank you
a door that never opens    was closing tight
but I am surely your future, and so...
la la la...

*

my body burned, consumed until my bones become nothing    burned, destroyed
goodbye

Lyrics - Kyo
Music - Kaoru